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I wish I could write and say that every day it gets a little easier.  I wish I could say that there has been at least 1 day where I have went all day without crying, but its just not that easy.  I have been told to be honest with my feelings and to be honest I'm not very good at that part.  I so badly want to say I'm okay and seriously mean it when others ask, but I often say I'm okay when I'm really dying on the inside. There is only 3 words that completely sum up how I'm feeling and its always I MISS BARETT so much (okay maybe there are 5 words).  When Barett and I decided on forever we meant it.  I remember during our pre-marriage counseling our preacher asking us both why we wanted to get married.  Our answers were about the same...."he/she completes me, and I cant imagine life without him/her." When we decided to get married we knew we were becoming "one."  When I hurt, he hurt, and when he was happy so was I.  We shared some amazing memori...

3 months as a family of 3 + 3 months as a family of 2 = Easton is now 6 months old. This is hard. Everyday it gets harder. I don't know who said it would get easier...but IT DOES NOT!! Its crazy where your mind goes when you have basically 20+ hours in the car to do nothing but think. It breaks my heart to know soon we will have spent more time without Barett than with him since Easton has been born. Today is also a happy day though. Easton is a happy, healthy, and perfect 6 month old!! I'm so glad that because of the love Barett and I had for one another we were blessed with our little miracle, Easton. I'm so thankful Barett got to be a daddy to Easton for the 3 months he did. I'm thankful for that time, even if it was very short. I'm thankful for the times he talked and sang to Easton while Easton was still in my tummy. I'm thankful for the 3 months we had as a family. The day Easton was born was the best day of my life. I had my 2 boys in my life and we were ...